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I havn't posted in months but im going to start again... its a good way to sort out life
I'm SUPER stressed w. the show and friendships
everything is going crazy and super out of control
Don't really know what I'm going to do about the friendship part but the show i can handle on my own...
Laura
P.S I'm not coming to you first, thats not how its going to be.
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[03 Jul 2006|07:45pm] |
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So waterfront last weekend was pretty sweet!
Kaitlin we're such rebels :P
Then this last week went by pretty fast, no exams or anything so i just chilled.
Then thursday i came to windsor... and i did LOTS of shopping (shoes x2, polo shirt, t-shirt, capris pants, new bag, pencil case, bracelets x2, hair stuff, stickers)
Went minigolfing, watched the canada day parade and such
I'v discovered that there is no perfect guy for me, i have too many criteria its a little depressing because no boy that i know or ever heard of fits the criteria
lates
I'm off to go bowling :D
Laura
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[16 Jun 2006|11:00pm] |
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Wow that was sad.
I was watching laguna beach and all I could think of was that that is going to be me in a few years and I got this wierd feeling inside and i was crying, it was pathetic.
And its hard especially now because I'm angry w/ my bestfriend and I don't want to be friends w/ her anymore but its not something that I can change because shes the one that has changed. And I don't know what to do anymore.
It was like she was the one person i relied on and now shes gone... and its hard because i dont talk to her and i dont even walk home from school w/ her but its not me that does it.
So now I'm all about retaliation but i know its not right but its like if thats how your going to treat me then I'll treat you the same ... right?
And now I'm thinking about how in two years next week im going to be thinking about university and i will have decided what university to go to... its tough. But i'v been thinking about what I will be leaving behind and all thats really coming to mind as TRULY important and I can't live w/out are like court, lauren and my family... no one else. But tonight its like what am i leaving behind? and i'm afraid of saying all the goodbyes ... and afraid of all things i wont have said to people that i should have said and its hard because i have so many things to tell or to ask so many people but i just don't know how. And right now i just want a really big hug from so many different people :D
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[30 Apr 2006|08:08pm] |
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ONE WORD. NO EXPLANATIONS.
1. Yourself: lonely
2. Your Lover: non-existent
3. Your Hair: curly
4. Your Mother: meh
5. Your Father: pretty cool
6. Your Favourite Item: ipod
7. Your Dream Last Night: i didnt sleep last night...
8. Your Favourite Drink: milkshake
9. Your Dream Home: big
10. The Room You Are In: messy
11. Your Pet: quiet
12. Who You Are Now: single...
13. Who You Want To Be In Ten Years: almost married
14. What You Want To Be In Ten Years: perfect
15. What You're Not: calm
16. Your Best Friend: non-existent
17. One of Your Wish List Items: a boy
18. Your Gender: girly
19. The Last Thing You Did: homework
20. What You Are Wearing: hoodie
21. Your Favourite Weather: sunny
22. Your Favourite Book: someone like you
23. The Last Thing You Ate: zuchini
24. Your Life: boring
25. Your Mood: nervous
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[30 Apr 2006|08:02pm] |
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Last night/ this morning was awesome just like every other friday or saturday night spent "sleeping" in my basement :P
Kaitlin was over... obvs... and we just had normal good times playing the who will you marry game with m&ms this time .. going on msn untill all hours of the morning and taking silly pictures and watching MTV.
Just like life should be
less than seven days... im getting crazy nervous.
Laura
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[22 Apr 2006|09:58pm] |
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[20 Apr 2006|05:42pm] |
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Call me selfish but I just want everything to be the way I want it to be!
I don't want to change the people, I want to change the way things work out, life would be much much better!
Why can't it just happen the way I want it to? I would never have to complain again because the way I want it to be would be the way it would be.
There would be no awkward moments or anything bad!
I wish...
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[18 Apr 2006|09:32pm] |
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Why can everything be like it used to be?
I had you when I needed you and I liked it like that!
Now I have to share you with everyone!
Excited but dreading it all at the same time!
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[09 Apr 2006|05:02pm] |
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I'm getting pretty pissed off at someone in particular.
Have you EVER left your cellphone at home? EVER?
We were out for dinner and you were texting him, we were at the movies and you were texting him, you slept over and you talked to him on MSN for like 2 hrs, we walked to go visit him and then you complained it was awkward because i'm there.... but then you said that its wierd to actually talk to him if your not at work... hmm ...maybe because both of you know that you shouldnt talk about what you talk about!
NEWFLASH!
HE HAS A GF!
Do you not feel a little bit guilty when hes telling you your hott and that he'd f**k you? maybe even a LITTLE bit?
We can't go ANYWHERE without you and your gd cellphone! and its turning you into a BITCH
You'v known him for what... 2 weeks... you work with him... and now hes your bestfriend?... then go chill with him rather than pretend to chill with me while texting him!
And then when he says mean things about me you laugh and go along with it... you tell him i went upstairs so that he'll say things to you that he should probably be saying to his gf
just WOW
yet you dont feel bad... you blame it on him...
I'v always been told that if you're not part of the solution then your part of the problem........i guess your part of the problem
It's stupid... you try to justify yourself because clearly you know its wrong... but do you care? no.
You say we have nothing to talk about.... why because i dont live through my cellphone... i actually talk to people? well maybe we would have more to talk about it your nose wasn't burried in your cellphone!
I have some advice for you:
Maybe you should think about what you're doing to his GF!
what would you do if YOU were her?
Just think about it.
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[01 Apr 2006|07:44pm] |
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So I'm like freakin' out for no reason now.
I have nothing to worry about at present and I think thats the problem...
Nothing is distracting me from anything... I have time to think about whatever I want and it's tres wierd
ooo *le sigh*
We all definitely needa hang out (court and lauren!!!!!)
BEFORE queens
I'm like going through a midlife crisis at 15!!!
I'm having one of those days where... you need someone to vent to... but no one seems to be the right person to talk to!
Whatevs...
I'm outtie
Hearts
Lora
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[30 Mar 2006|09:47pm] |
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so I went on the treadmill again tonight... GO TEAM!
And I'm super psyched for queen's even tho its far away from now... and the bus is going to be pretty sweet im not gonna lie!
I was reading a lil ellegirl... and this is the advice it gives:
1. DON'T get all clingy on the first date because you want to show the other girls he's off-limits. DO realize that PDAs are only verboten because they're fun!
2. DON'T wear goopy lip gloss if you're looking to make out. A sheer veil of rosy lip color is all you need. DO intensify your gaze with hypnotizing cat eyes. (okay #1 I LOVE lipgloss no matter how goopy and #2 i NEVER wear eyeliner so so far this isnt working)
3. DON'T blurt out "I love you" after the first week, or, come to think of it, first month. DO wear a message t-shirt in another language to confuse him. (so I'm not big into random I love yous which is good .... and other languages are hott yea?)
4. DON'T kiss him until you're sure you like him. DO plant one on him when he least expects it. (so the general census says that kissing people in general before you decide you like them is bad... and kissing them even if you think you like them is still bad)
5. DON'T spy on him when he's out with his friends. DO put on your cutest smile if you get caught. ( who spys on their bf .. what a creeper!)
6. DON'T pout when he makes you watch Scarface for the zillionth time. DO remind him of your patience during the next Gilmore Girls marathon. ( personally i would rather watch scarface... HELLO its SCARY...and he would be a BOY!... and im not a gilmore girls fan!)
So thats what i think about their advice :D
AND... what is everyone doing April 8 cuz im home alone allllllll night almost!
hearts
lora
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[27 Mar 2006|06:19pm] |
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I'm turning over a new leaf!... go team!
the gym and more self tanner than ever before!
HEARTS <3
P.S I still like him!
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[19 Mar 2006|05:59pm] |
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It was pretty wicked
we'll go for the +/- just to keep it straight ready?...
+lots of sun
+ allll good weather
+ lots of people
++ all the trendy kids from montreal were there
+ i went swimming with dolphins
+ i went on a catamaren
+ lots of good music
+ some tres cute boys
+ drinking... but not too much drinking
+ everything was free! (I.E FREE DRINKS!)
++ im sure there was more i just cant remember right now... il post again about it later when i remember
now for the not so good stuff
- pedafile cubans
- the emo boys only got there the night before i left! : (
- i had to get up early and i was kinda... hungover... and i was like really sicks
- way too much MTV
- 13yr old bitch girls flashing volleyball players
- getting fried from the sun
- not being able to walk from my sunburn
-- my parents being over protective!!!!!!!
but anyways i had a great time just chillin in the sun with a bunch of really cool kids!
My hearts to you all
Lora
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[11 Mar 2006|08:43pm] |
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So the moment I've been waiting for for the past few months is here in like a few hours... but I'm not that excited now that it's here.
Coffee last night was interesting to say the least...
- starting with the expectation its a girls night
- then learning that boys are coming and getting nervous
- then forcing alex to come with us
- then inviting Jordan
- then getting all anxious on the walk over
- then learning that only josh is there
- spending 2 hrs with a bunch of people that dont even know each other
Yea it was interesting i guess... we'll say not what i expected?
So people at my school are messed up... a girl would rather stay home with her bf then go to banff for a week, a trip which she has been looking for for a LONG time.
Court... our suspicions about her are wrong... i'll tell you about it later!
Hope everyone has an awesome march break and I'll see you all in a week!
My hearts
Laura
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[26 Feb 2006|04:57pm] |
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So... the banquet was last night! We did really well even though we're not going on, we got 4 awards and we recieved the MAJOR two, the two we really wanted. The shows that did go on... good for you? I'm a little bit annoyed by whos going on but its okay, I'll get over it.
CAST PARTY! A little drinking a lot of laughing and lots of picture taking! It was silly because my sister said i could only have one cooler and thats it but then i got other stuff and then she was really mad but whatever i was fine when i went home.
I hate the day after parties... I'm always soo sick maybe its the vodka with the rum...? who knows but i feel like crap and will probably feel like crap tomorrow as well! GOOD FUN!
My heart is like *swoon* always... and i cant wait until queens because it's always goodtimes there!
We all need to go have coffee and visit because I havn't seen any of you in like EVER! And we havn't had coffee in like EVER!
Loves ya
Lora<3
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contrary to apparently popular belief, I wasn't freaking out when I wrote that last post, I was ACTUALLY TRES calm. I was merely expressing myself which is what this is basically for is it not?.. to say things that you don't normally just say to other people for everyone to read?... well thats how I look at it.
I must admit drunk stories are generally always good stories.
And queen's will be mad wicked... but i donno about the getting crunk part of that... I say we save it for when we get back.
Umm so my life has been tres busy so I haven't had time to worry about everything else which is more or less the way i like it. If theres no time to worry and think about things... then theres nothing to worry about.. yea? :D
So ... cast party is on saturday.. am i drinking... I DONT KNOW!... and i even going? I DONT KNOW... Do i want to go?... FOR SURE!.. does my sister?... NOT SO MUCH!
Last nights show was pretty stress and because i had to switch sides and my sister was ON STAGE! (fantabulous job by the way even w/out the accent)
Gassi is talking to all my friends trying to figure out whats going on with my and band now which kind of scares me because... well i dont know what im going to do.
NELSON ON THURSDAY... YOU SHOULD GO EVERYBODY!
Lots of love
Lora
P.S I LOVE TO DANCE TO 90'S MUSIC!
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I hate when people can just pretend that nothings wrong...
Like how can you keep everything inside you and pretend like it's okay?!?
I don't get it!
After years of hearing everyone else's problems... I feel like mine arn't as important... like my stories arn't as valid because I don't have as many of them?
What's up with that?!?
Just because my stories arn't as exciting or dramatic doesn't mean that they're less important... just because I have less of them that doesn't make it any less real right?
I don't know
Also... You can say it's because we're such good friends or we know each other so well... but how can you not talk to me for like a month or two then call me up and pretend like we're bestfriends again?!?
Can that even happen?... Should you let that happen?
I don't know... is it like you only come to me in hard times or when you don't know what to do?... is that fair?
I don't get that either!
How can one event... turn you into a totally different person?!? Even a thing that happened a year ago... but your just realizing it now?
Can that even happen?
APPARENTLY!
But i dont understand it!
And who's to say whether it was a good change or a bad one?... I'm going to say good because I'm more aware of what I do... but its bad wierd because I feel all grown up and now responsible for my actions...
I really need to just vent everything and get it off my chest... it drives me nuts... and even though people don't read it very often.. that makes it better because what I said will have time to sink in with me before everyone leaves their thoughts about it right?...
And when people get all pissy about it... guess what ... I DONT CARE!.. Interpret it how you want... but thats what I feel like.. MY feelings and thats whats important to me right now.
That extra ticket of mine sitting in my room... its not going to go where I thought it would.. because that wouldn't make sense. How often do I TRULY talk to you? NOT VERY OFTEN... I talk to HIM more often and I'm not even a BLIP on his radar.. yea that's right.... And when I have a problem it won't be you who I ask about because last time you couldn't careless... you told me it was MY problem. Well when you have a problem and you ask me you know what I'll say... "It's your problem and I probably shouldn't get involved with it.. how will that make you feel? Someone you came to for help normally telling you they're not helping you anymore!
It'll be interesting won't it?
And when you come to me telling me you wish you were at home.. I'll pretend like I'm having the best time here and that sucks that your not having fun.
I'll tell YOU what i've been up to and how much fun I'v been having... that'll make you happy won't it?!?
I'm sure it will!
I won't come to you with any of my problems anymore no matter how much you "want" to know whats going on in my life... want to know why?
Because you TRULY don't care.. so you know what... I don't need that anymore... why spend time on people who don't really care whats happening?
I'll go tell HIM at least he LISTENS to me
The first time i came to you with a problem you couldn't careless you were too busy with your own life to help me with mine...
yea my so-called "best friend"
Clearly I'm not understanding much these days... but thats okay because I'll figure it out in the years I have left right?
Hopefully!
That was good to get off the chest after HOW MANY YEARS? probably toooo many
Obviously your still my friend.. but i don't want to see the facade of you actually caring ...
sure i want to hear about your friends... but i want to hear you ask me about mine as well...
yea i want to hear about your boyfriend... but i want you to ask me about my crush
I want to hear about your home life and how you were grounded or whatever... but at least ask me how my week was
But most of all I want you to actually care... I don't want it to be all fake and bubbly like yea we're bestfriends when we're together I want genuine care... but you know what ... if its not like that.. I'll be alright.
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So... although I'm like tres anti valentines day... i had a good one.
It was too cute when I came in the caf and jake was like do you have $6?
and i was like of course i dont but i have $2
so hes like give it to me
and of course I'm terrible when it comes to cute boys
so i gave it to him
then he went and bought a chocolate rose
and there were like 5girls sitting at our table
so he brings it back and has it behind his back and pulls it out and he tries to split it between the five of us
it was soo sweet... cuz he like pulled it out and was like "so ladies... happy valentines day!"
so thats how good my day was
love you
lora
P.S HAPPY VDAY!
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[12 Feb 2006|06:13pm] |
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So lifes kinda wierd,
school and everything is sweet.. but my group of friends has totally changed and its really wierd, now i'm with people who are more like me i guess...?
mmm i still have the same crush
but why do i like him so much?!? so wierd..
but onto the wierd part...
its so confusing.... people who i used to have like 3 hr conversations with... i can barely keep a 5min conversation going with them its nuts
is it that i dont have as much in common or what?!?
its only hi... hi... how are you... good, you?... good...
thats it... its like me... the person who never runs out of words has nothing to say!
Anyways... onto boringer things
im crazy busy all this week... school untill 8 every day this week...
our play is not going well at all
gotta go dinner and then kaitlin and i are hair straightening for the rest of the night! o my!
lots of love
lora
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[29 Jan 2006|08:40pm] |
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So, lifes good, but it will be sad with no math class.
I bought a nano... its only cute because of my pretty girlie pink leather case for it! :D
alex's grama died?!? COURT CALL ME!!!!
Umm... yea so we didn't go snowboarding today... tres sad
Lifes is pretttty boring...
im still determined to join a nunnery
thats it...
pretty boring
lora
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